It's been warm weather lately and I finally found time to pull out my Rubbermaid bins of "summer clothes." The past 2 summers, I have opened up these bins and hung up about half the clothes stored in them because they didn't fit. It was depressing.
This last weekend as i started unfolding the clothes in the summer bin i decided i would try everything on again. Third time’s a charm - I finally can wear all my old clothes again! These clothes are the ones i bought when i had lost weight a few years back. The cute business capris from Ann Taylor and button up tops. Cute summer dresses and things with low cut backs. Man what a journey this has been.
Wow. I feel like I have a whole new wardrobe. Finally – I’m back on track and have a very tangible way of seeing it.
As I’ve mentioned before, I’ve always struggled with my weight. Losing weight the last time (which was about a year after college) seemed pretty easy because I was making such unhealthy choices before. Eating out all the time, buying cheap processed foods instead of cooking at home. So when I made changes to my diet and had a job that required me to be “on the go” for 12 hours at a time (I was a waitress) – I lost 25 pounds with relative ease.
When I gained the weight back (and then some) several years later – it felt like it happened overnight. But the truth is – weight gain doesn’t happen overnight. It happens when you are consistently making bad choices in your diet and your ignoring the need for consistent exercise in your life. Looking back, I remember putting on my pants and thinking they felt tighter. I remember deciding to grab something to eat “on the go” instead of bringing my lunch from home or cooking in the evening. I remember choosing chicken fingers and French fries and ranch dressing instead of a salad. It’s easy to ignore at first. Then you see a picture and you wonder when your arms starting looking so flabby or if you always had that double chin.
I know it because I’ve experienced it. I know what fat feels like. I know what losing weight and gaining it back feels like. I know what eating because you are stressed is like – and I understand how hard it is to change your habits so that things are different for you.
But most importantly, I also know what DOING something about it feels like. And it’s a choice you make. And you will make that choice all day long every day. The choice to get up and move, to meet friends for a walk instead of drinks, to try a restaurant with healthy choices vs something quick, a choice to change your order from a extra large mocha with whip to a cup of coffee with some skim milk or low fat creamer in it.
Ultimately – the choice is yours. And only you can take ownership of your life and your body. It’s your health – and if you want things to be different, you have to start acting differently. Your choices must change.
If you want to buy new clothes or fit into your old clothes (like I did) – then what are you changing about your life to get there?
I’ve lost some weight. I’ve met some of my goals. But I’m not done yet. I still have to KEEP making changes to my lifestyle to attain my long term goals. But it’s worth it. I’m worth it. Fitting into clothes that I’ve longingly looked at and continued to try on and not be able to button or zip up for 2 years is a HUGE milestone for me. And being able to do that made me go through my entire closet and get rid of everything that was too big for me now. What a change from last summer!
So for me – in order to move forward I have to learn to let go. On this journey – I’m not making any U Turns. And the only destination I have is something that is ahead – not behind me. So this weekend, I put all my clothes that were too big into a pile to take to Goodwill. I’m not going back. I will not wear those clothes again and there is absolutely NO reason to keep them around because that means that I don’t believe in myself and my ability to change my life forever.
I don’t know where you are on your journey. But if you are going to start moving forward (even if you’ve been spinning in circles for awhile) – you have to change something. That may mean letting go of something. That may mean adding something to your lifestyle. I can’t tell you that part – because you are in the driver’s seat and only you know what will get the car rolling again down your path.
But take control. DO something. Because just like gaining weight – LOSING weight and becoming more healthy doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a series of good choices you make that will take you where you need to go. And one day you WILL wake up and fit into those jeans or that dress again. And you’ll look back and say – “Man what a journey to get here” and you will be stronger, leaner, happier, and healthier than ever before.
Won’t that be worth it? And aren’t YOU worth it?
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