Tuesday, October 12, 2010

And then it was Mrs.

Well - time did fly by. Now the wedding was 2 weekends ago and I'm back to work. The wedding was amazing. Everything went pretty smoothly - a couple of funny kinks (well they weren't funny THEN, but they are now).

In the end - i had a blast. I got to see all my family in one place, all my friends in one place - and they were all there to witness a huge moment in my life. That is so special. I will hold on to that piece of 10/2/10 forever. If there is one thing that i had to pick out about my husband and I (weird to say that!!!) it's that we are deeply social people. As much as i may need my quiet time to regenerate - with too much downtime, it drains me. He is the same way - just with less of a need to regenerate on his own. So having so many people there with us on our wedding day was like fueling our fire.

I can't pick my favorite moment from the day. It was definitely not the part where the music stopped working as soon as it was my turn to walk down the aisle. haha

And it was probably not the moment my new niece stepped on the front of my wedding dress on the dance floor and tripped me so completely that i fell DOWN and spilled my wine all over the place. My mom said that she wasn't surprised that i hurt my left knee on my wedding day. She said that over the course of my life, i have always hurt my left knee. And it was just another pivotal moment in my life. It's almost a reminder to be humble in a lot of ways i guess. When things are good - like God literally knocking me down and saying, remember? Interesting.

Some of my favorite moments were having my best friends around me all day. To make me laugh, to make me smile, to chill me out. In the end, with all the make up, the hair, the wedding gown - i still just felt like me and that made me happy. I wasn't pretending to be anyone else, i wasn't putting on a show. I was just me - and everyone was excited to be there and share that moment.

As i walked up the aisle, i fought back tears - again, it was a humbling experience to see a sea of faces and smiles who already love you, or people who are ready to love you from your significant others side. I held on tightly to my dad, looking to him to steady myself. Walking down toward RJ - and i could see a million miles away tears in his eyes. And i had to tell myself - keep it together or you'll never get it back through the whole ceremony. I thought about Rj's shoes that i let him buy for the wedding - high top brown vans and that made me smile and remember that it was just Rj, and i was just me - and everything was good.

It's funny what gets you through those moments. A lot of things are a blur. Rj said "i do" too soon and it made everyone laugh. We exchanged roses. He kissed me - we strolled out of the chapel and rushed to the side of the building to spend a few moments together before we took pictures.

The reception was just 100's of conversations, pictures, smiling, laughing, dancing, meeting new people and seeing old friends. *sigh*

I could write a book of memories and moments from that day. I'm so glad that there are so many pictures to tell the stories that i won't get to tell.

I'm married!